What i love

  • my LORD and Savior Jesus Christ
  • to snuggle in the safety of hubby's arms
  • my kids' laughter
  • chocolate (well it's true)
  • daisies
  • candles of any kind
  • warm bubble baths

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Just one more...


So everyone around me is having babies lately. My cousin is pregnant, two of my dearest friends just had babies and I am surrounded by all these pregnant women at church... I think i am coming down with a fever... Baby fever...
We have 3 wonderful children, they keep me so busy and the bigger they get the busier we get as a family, but sometimes I wonder what it would be like to add just one more. Our home would certainly get more crowded, but that is something we already are, so one more body, really would not make that much difference. Our finances could handle the expenses related to bringing along another child, so that is not so much an issue either. Time is the issue, time that we spend with our 3 little ones, and dividing that time between one more seems scary. Also time for us as a couple. It is almost impossible to get a sitter for all 3 kids at once. Usually we can get rid of two at a time without too much hassle, but it is that 3rd one that we are always toting around on date night... not that I would wanna change it, but sometimes couple time is so nice when it is just the two of us and we don't get that very often, so adding one more, would cut down on our private time that much more. Sleep is another issue. We got one out of our bed just in time to have our youngest decide that she liked our bed better than hers, who can blame her, the two people she loves most on either side of her snuggling together, feeling warm and safe... but she sleeps all night, and for the most part so do we. So adding another baby would mean no sleep for months (mostly for me) and a tired Mommy makes for a cranky Mommy too!
Adding another is a big decision, it will require more patience, more love, and more of a lot of other things too, but somehow I think that God provides you with the tools to use when you trust in Him... so for now, we will wait, and Pray a lot about what is best for us as a family, but in my heart I know there is room for... Just one more...

The Cleaning Diva.....

Well I'm back... I have been Flybaby-ing it now for weeks, and am LOVING how it not only makes my housework so much more manageable, and YES even dare I say fun, but also how it makes me feel so much more competant as a wife and mother to provide the organized and less stressful life my family deserves. I am feeling very confident, and actually have MORE free time to do the other things that I love to do, such as read, sew, and scrapbook with out feeling guilty that I am selfishly letting my house go to meet my "me time" needs. It is in a word WONDERFUL, and my husband arrives home to a relaxed atmosphere and I am almost always in a great mood, because I am not feeling the stress of "trying to do it all" with no plan on how to do it... Our relationship has taken on a new dynamic, because instead of me stressing about having to do...(fill in the blank), I actually have time and energy to carry on an adult conversation with him about whatever. He is so loving the new me and my new attitude, that without any prompting from me, has begun to take notice when things are out of place, and put them back. He said it was because he never noticed (fill in the blank) before I cleaned it, and now it looks so good, he wants to help keep it that way. So... suddenly instead of feeling all panicky and depressed about how out of control my home is, I am feeling like I could conquer the world one room at a time! I still have a lot to do, but it is not so overwhelming now that I have a plan of action.
So that is what is new with me, and everything else seems to be falling into place and running smoothly here on the homefront... but that's just me...