catching up

Off to a hectic start, summer has finally arrived and it is HOT! we managed to finish out the school year without major noteworthy events. Silviya is home, doing well and is now officially a "driver". Kids both finished their ball seasons, it was fun lots of great times, and memories, but we are done!!! My job and Tom's job are both going well. Really it is life as normal, with one small niggling that something is just not quite right.....

One thing i think is that my baby is just one year away from TEEN, and that bothers me more than i like to admit. SHE is beautiful, smart, funny and just full of personality, has the whole world in front of her, and that scares me almost to death. But at the same time i am busting with pride and admiration at the young lady she is becoming. I guess it is growing pains for me, really realizing how quickly the time is passing, and how little time i have left to teach her so many things yet.
Another thing is my littlest baby is going to school this year. Normal i know, but both heartbreaking and wonderful at the same time. She is no longer a baby, she is growing up quickly and wonderfully all too fast.
My son is such a little boy still, he is full of curiosity and playfulness, but sometime early this summer i have noticed an intenseness, a more serious side of him that has never been there before, he asks insightful and very thought provoking questions. He too, is growing up, beginning to shape into the young man i hope he will someday be.
I guess this summer for me has been a very bittersweet time, of loving and letting go. Every mother must go thru this, i know. I am not alone in these feelings, and while i would not wish the way my heart feels at times on anyone, i am comforted by the knowledge that the mothers of this world are facing the same hopes and fears.

I had another birthday, uneventful, but very enjoyable time spent with family, which i guess is what has gotten me to wax nostalgic lately about time passing so quickly. I realize more and more each day how very little time we have on earth, how each day should count for something, and how many days i spend frivolously and wastefully not doing my life's calling, and purpose. It is jolting to realize that at times.

So, not that this has been a very fun or newsworthy post after so long a silence, that is it, really, in the end all i have to say today....