dare i hope???

well it has been a few weeks... update, after many dr's visits, lab tests and all that jazz, i am on 2 medications and i am daring to hope again... i am beginning to see glimpses of the girl i am inside screaming to get out... i am waking up smiling, with more energy... i am not nearly as MOOODDYY and i think just maybe my hubby is remembering the girl he married so long ago. I feel like me again.. almost everyday little things surprise me, make me laugh, make me stop and enjoy and i no longer want the day to end... just to go to bed and sleep (wink wink)!
SOOOO that said... some funny things have been happening lately... my kids are hilarious... no really something i have not been able to notice for quite sometime they crack me up!!! and they love me, really love me, even when i am grouchy and even more when i am fun and energetic and playful and PATIENT and not yelling... oh it is sooo good to be back!

A bit of a change has taken place at our house this week. I am no longer babysitting that precious baby boy... his grandma decided to retire and really wanted to watch him, and who could blame her... he is so sweet, so he is gone, and i am sad, i love him dearly, almost like one of my own, but i know that his granny loves him and will really enjoy him alot! So suddenly i have a lot more time on my hands, and my house is mother in law clean, my laundry is not only done but put away... and i have been going to the library, and to lunch with friends, and playing polly pockets for hours with my little mia mouse.. it is good, still good, but quieter and will take some getting used to.

Tom is travelling this week, will be home Thursday, and i am missing him already and he just left today! I hate it when he travels, it is hard on me and the kids and really him too. But it is a neccessary evil for his job, and until he decides to move on to something else, he is gonna be gone sometimes.

I think that is it for now... my friend Rhonda is visiting my friend Melody in Idaho... talked to them on the phone this evening they were heading to dinner... sounds like they are having a good visit. My sweet friend Julie is moving CLOSER to me to Greenwood in just a few weeks I CANT WAIT!!! and i get to go help her tomorrow to get ready to have a yard sale before they move, and the girls will get to play!! Jenna and Mia have such a great time together!! SO i am still waiting on my friend LeAnne to QUIT her stinkin job and become a full-time photographer so i can book appts for her and keep her hoppin (wink)... and everyone else... oh they are fantastic, and fun and i miss them and wanna get together soooooonnn!!!!!